Inspirations for my soul - what is yours?

     Not everyone can believe in God.  Some hate God, because they blame God for everything that goes wrong.  Then you have the self righteous, who can do no wrong and think they have the moral plateau that is for everyone.  And boy, do you feel the wrath if you do not conform.  Look at all the wars in the name of religion from people who have their own interpretation of what is good and bad and boy if you don’t conform, you are in trouble.  You get the point?   So, today why not reflect on how you take care of your soul?  My routine is very basic, or so it is for me.  First I pray the rosary while drinking my first coffee.  Then I read the applicable pages of the breviary.  There is a daily reading of Psalm 22 (my favourite).  Then since my Pastor gave me a Bible Diary for 2025, daily readings and reflections (yup I do that too).  Then I read a page from Sacra Pagina, from the Gospel of Mark and to just finish off I read a page from the legion, Ontario Command, Military Service Recognition book, Volume xi (because the legion gave it to me as I am in it.)  I also say a prayer after or before Psalm 22 to everyone who has died and those who need prayers.  Sounds exhausting?  I have built up to it slowly and then this is on my regular days when I am by myself before starting the day.  All this changes and becomes edited if I am traveling somewhere, with others etc……The point is that this works for me as I look out at the birds and squirrels who come to greet me and munch on the apples I  provide.  You need to find what works for you.  It may be just calming down and focusing on your breathing.  It may be just spending time in nature.  It may be reciting a poem from your heart.  What is important is that you are trying to connect with something beyond yourself.  You can try just talking to God or surrendering to God.    It is ok to ask for help.  It is ok to get mad at God.  It is ok to be grateful.  It is ok to just be with….Have a good weekend.

Group Therapy

I hope everyone had a good long weekend.  I would like to touch a bit on group therapy.  It is important that people who participate understand that they are not to share information from the other group members.  I would have everyone complete the basic paperwork that I have other clients compile.  The same rules exist in duty to report.  This is more affordable than individual therapy sessions, but that cannot be ruled out.  Group therapy is not for everyone especially those suffering from complicated grief.  I have talked about complicated grief in previous blogs so I won't repeat myself.  Sometimes, people can't participate because they need more time than can be permitted in groups.  It is important that all have an equal opportunity to speak.  I like to start with a "check in".  This is a quick five minutes introduction of where each person feels they want to share as an introduction perhaps of what they want to talk about.  Sometimes, people here may say they would like to start first if they are eager to share something with the group.  No one should ever feel forced to speak.  Some may not be ready to share and that is ok.  Groups may be general or specific to what one shares with other groups...such as PTSD, survivors of sexual abuse etc......There are also many support groups out there and I would suggest checking them out first before attending.  Some may have a different cause than what is reported.  Support groups should also have a therapist attend at times to ensure everyone is on track and if there is a requirement for additional support.  What do you think? 

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Family Therapy

If I had my way, every person who comes to me, would also bring their entire family.  There can be intensive healing in families.  I have seen so much love in the most dysfunctional families.  I have also seen different dynamics from what one can be led to believe.  Usually abusers don’t want to attend sessions unless they think they can control and manipulate the therapist.  In that case it can be difficult to work with and sometimes not possible until there is recognition and willingness to self reflect and to acknowledge harm done.  I have been asked to attend court for people and have declined because to make a fair assessment I would have to see all parties involved.  And, it is because everyone has a story from their perspective.  That is one piece of the puzzle.   What really goes on in families?  Family therapy is about each person providing their perspective and recognizing the dynamics in the room, if that is what is wanted.  It is about listening to each other.  It is about understanding the impact one has on their immediate family and it is also about willingness to change for the sake of the family.  It is systemic.  When it comes to physical, emotional, financial and sexual abuse, that has to stop.  I have no problem with abusers going to jail.  Life is crushing to the survivors of abuse.  I attended a sexual assault course ages ago before I was a therapist.  It began with a survivor telling her story.  She grew up being raped by her father and brother throughout the years and then as an adult she reported it to the OPP Officer leading our course.  What did her mother say to the daughter after years of abuse?  “How dare you bring shame to our family.”  This was a white well to do family.  Why was this survivor able to tell her story to the policewoman?  “She never looked at her watch.”  I later asked the policewoman if she was aware of this.  She was not.  Not looking at her watch was never intentional, yet this made the difference in how much the survivor was able to reveal and reveal she did.  It is important to know that when you are raised a particular way, you think it is normal.  I was once asked if every father has sex with his child.  I said no.  Imagine a grown person thinking that is the norm?  There is also a cycle of abuse, but that can be broken.  Not everyone who is abused, abuses.  There have been survivors of abuse who only realized life could be different when they saw family shows.  These wholesome family shows is what sustained them.  In their minds, the show became their real family and support.  There is always a lot of support for those who commit crimes, but one should never take away the harm that is done and that should be criminal in my opinion and not an excuse.  I believe we need to protect society from those who cause harm and we do not by catch and release.  I do think we need some serious change, however it begins with what is happening at home.  Who is protecting the children and elderly and pets when no one sees within the family unit?  As a therapist I am obligated to report when there is child abuse or someone is going to commit suicide or cause injury to another.  How many will tell me what is really going on after that?  Yet people have a right.  However, it is not all gloom and bloom.   Children grow up and learn how to heal.  I have seen the most abused children as adults become the most caring and resilient people whose objection is to help others and cause no harm.  Sometimes, they just need a gentle reminder that they are their own person, who can make their own decisions and they do not need to be defined by others.  They are amazing people who have survived.  What do you think?

 

 

Couple Therapy

 

    I have seen couples married, 20, 30 and even 40 years.  Regardless of the amount of years, there is always a surprise of how one person feels that the other didn’t know about.  Depending on the couple, amount of sessions vary.   Even one session can help couples.  On the other hand there can be so much anxiety in the relationship, that it can take several sessions for the couple to take control of their emotions to begin the work.  Sometimes there is screaming which I do not tolerate.  If people want to work on their relationship then they need to start to communicate which includes active listening from the partner.  Slowly they can start to listen and to respond to the other equally.  All  screaming does is shut down the other person who may begin to feel traumatized.  One of the questions I ask is if there are any addictions, mental disorders, abuses etc…  When there is nothing else except the relationship, it is easy, or not.  I refuse to see any couple who isn’t serious about working on their relationship which includes giving up an affair if one exists.  It is not possible to work on a relationship if one cannot give up another lover.  I make that quite clear in the beginning and what has also happened is that the lover is not given up and the couple attempt to keep if from me.  In that case I refer them elsewhere.  I am serious about my work.  There have been times when one having an affair wants to work on the affair rather than their spouse.  Of course that won’t work.  Then there are those who don’t really want marriage therapy but attend because one is facing an alternative.  Either see the therapist with me or it is over.  When that happens, fault is normally found with the therapist by the person feeling forced.  Any fault will do, not to continue sessions.  I have found that when there isn’t much time invested in the relationship there is a tendency to end the relationship.  Sometimes people have stayed together to raise their children.  However, if people really are serious about working on their relationship, then the work begins.  How are your relationships in general? (For your info, because I am selling my house and it is staged, I cannot take any new clients at this moment. I charge 200.00 for couple therapy as well as family therapy.  I charge 80.00 for individual therapy.  Each session is 50 minutes.  I also charge $200.00 for consultations.)   redigondapsychotherapy.com.  

How does retirement sound to me?

Well, selling my books at the Legion was fun as usual.  There was another author there and we sold the same amount of books.  Hers was mainly childrens books and one inspirational book.  Mine which sold was For Love of Country - Military Police Woman.  The coffee being sold was so terrible that I had to switch to tea.  Uch!  It tasted like salt.  However, the grilled cheese sandwiches were amazing and I had two throughout the day.  The Sgt Major also informed me that they now have a woman section in their museum.  I took a look and there was my helmet (I think it was mine but it looked so clean.  How did that happen?   My notebook was there (unused of course), my handcuffs (I gave them the keys but I didn't see that), my coffee cup from Toronto )one of the men I served with mailed me his.  So, I kept one and gave them the other.  Also, there in display is my book "For Love of Country Military Policewoman."  I now belong in a museum.   Being installed in a museum and not being able to have new clients because my house is still staged has given me time for myself, more than ever, so I am seriously thinking - retirement.  After all, I have been working since I was thirteen years old.  Yup,  but it was only part time because I was going to school.  I still had time for sports, dance and lots of fun while school took a back seat as a basic requirement.  Of course that all changed as I joined the grown up world.  School became very important as was work and so I played a bit less to get it all in.  So, with this house search in Niagara Falls and my trying to sell my house which isn't going so well, of course it is good to blame Trump and his threats to our economy (he should buy my house).  However, life is life and with it comes challenges.  I shall not sweat the small stuff.  I have a choice, decrease my price or take the house off the market until things improve.  I have enjoyed slowing down and smelling the coffee or is it roses?  No, my roses are not blooming yet.  I have more time to play.  I can get used to this or can I?  It has been suggested that I take a sabatical rather than just retire.  Why?  I may like this leisure time more than I think?  This will give me the time to seriously write.  Yesterday I said no to keeping my association with the Badge of Life.  They are reaching out to all the therapists asking for $100.00 to stay on their web site for the remainder of this year and $200.00 for next year.  I said no and stated that I am thinking of retirement.  The Badge of Life is an amazing organization and I have recommended them and shall continue to do so.  I haven't been able to take their last two conferences but the one I did attend was worth taking.  This was started by a husband and wife team both previously Toronto Police who now have PTSD.  They offer a lot of support to emergency personnel, still working or retired etc...Prison guards are included.  I fully encourage anyone to reach out to them.  I am seriously considering retiring at the end of this year which means that I am going to stop renewing memberships.  I spend a lot of money doing my job and because I am in private practice, I incur all the costs.  So, perhaps it is time for a change.  I am not there yet, but almost.  I have been able to read a book a day and still get things done.  I love to read.  I haven't continued my next book yet because I want to be able to focus on it and priorities have changed.  I do want to sell my house and move to Niagara Falls.  I want to try all their restaurants and cafes.  I want to go to the other side of the bridge and check out their stuff.  Just yesterday I was told that establishments are suffering in the States because of the decrease in Canadians.  One woman told me that she and her family went to the Olive Garden and they were thanked for coming because business is suffering.  The Olive Garden?  Yup, I'll go of course.  However,  I will wear a Canadian T shirt and I will report to you my findings.  Will I be loved?  Will I be rejected?  Should be fun.  So, for now, I say good bye and will start providing you with therapy information again next week.  My notes are still hidden but that is ok.  My grey cells are full of information.  What do you think?

Thoughts of the Week

 I am still in the process of selling my home and therefore I cannot take on any new clients.  I am also still living in a staged house.  Not fun.  My stuff has been hidden away and just finding anything is a chore.  This was supposed to be a one week inconvenience and look what happened.  Still here.  Grateful, that I did not buy anything before selling.  Don't do it is my advice to you.  Sell, then buy.  I may have to take this off the market while Trump is in power because he is causing instability in the markets, thus the problem of selling my home.  Or, so I have been told by everyone who should know.  Oh boy, America did you vote for this?  Please say no.  My Pope, or should I say the people's Pope has also died.  He taught so much of building bridges and not walls.  He loved the people of the world.  Ukraine is still struggling as Russia continues to bomb it mercilessly.  On top of that Trump blames the victim.  It is Russia who is the aggressor but you know that, don't you.  Just like you would love to take Canada over.  This gets so tiresome.  Anyhow, I did manage to read an entire Peterson book yesterday and today is supposed to be a much needed sunny and warm day.  Yes, please.  I am grateful that I took out my summer wear  before the stage or I would have had to buy all new.  I still need a new dryer since mine broke down and that is impossible right at this moment.  One final reminder is that this Saturday I shall be selling my books at the legion, 31, on Weston Road, South of Eglinton.  This will probably be my last event there if I sell my house.  As will it be at Word on the street.  But then of course no one knows what will happen.   Trump, please take a holiday and let the economy calm down.  Wouldn't it be nice if the earth stood still and all wars stopped and dictators vanished because they started to care?  Terrorists would have no one to terrorize because they would be managed nicely in cells?  Wouldn't it be nice if we could all take a step back and see each others as reflections of ourselves?  Have a good weekend world.   What do you think?

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