My time; my office. All about me.

     My car is in the garage once again.  I read three books about this car before I bought it to ensure I was getting a good investment.  I realized that it would have to last and last, until I got organized which included waiting for a second retirement, returning to school full time and starting a new business.   Actually, I didn't plan on doing the latter.  I just wanted to retire.  I like retiring and do it every so often.  Now I am planning for permanency (I can't get spell check on this blog and it is annoying.  So please forgive any errors).  My plan is to counsel several days a week, write novels and have fun.  I would eventually like to live by the water and I could still do what I am doing anywhere in North America except California I believe.  They do not acknowledge the American Association of Family Therapy but they may Pastoral Counselling.  I never checked that. My grad studies are good there as well.  However, I may also always return to further my education, rather than just professional development.  The world is my oyster, so to speak.  Have you ever watched that program "Murder in Paradise"?  I hope I have the title right.  I can picture myself in that little cabin by the water with my own lizard writing away...........now that is paradise.  A child hood friend was visiting me this weekend.  She brought a bottle of wine and we talked and talked.  I told her about that show.  "You would live in that shack?"  She said horrified but amused.  "My own lizard.  Maybe a dog?  Why not?"   
However, I have a very close friend who happens to be my best friend who keeps telling me I am a city gal and I would get bored.  Boredom is something I have never suffered from.  I have never experienced it.  What some may find boring, I would find relaxing.  Please let me experience boredom?  Actually, I did experience it once.  It was after my first career.  I was into my second and after a month; I must admit I was getting bored.  It was fun but not challenging.  Then I went back to school and boredom was gone!  I have not stopped get my schooling since.
     Oh well, I hope they figure out what is wrong with my car.  I was hoping to spend at least one night asleep on a boat at a marina all by myself out away from the city.  That will not happen if my car is dying.  I was hoping to go to a family get together.  That won't happen if my car does regain consciousness.  But, I do have a lovely back yard.  I can always sleep on my deck.  No I cannot.  I live in the city.  I have no alarm outside on my deck, only in the house.  Oh, oh.........I will survive.  My car will awaken.  I have two more tows from CAA.  I do not leave home without it.  I was also imagining my life without a car.  I imagined how I can travel around in my little city without taking city transit.  You all know I hate taking the TTC.  I thought about taking my bicycle out and giving it some resuscitation.  I walked by the bicycle shop the other day and the owner was outside.  He asked me where my bike was.  I had hoped he would not recognize me.
     Do I really need a car?  How many people do not have one?  Of course I do not need a car, but I want one, mine.  The other day I was driving to Home Depot to buy some paint to refreshen my home.  A man in an Alpha Romeo Sports car stopped beside me at a red light.  "That used to be my favourite car." I told him.  "Used to?" he repeated.  I have always admired a man who knows how to listen.  "What is it now?" he asked.  "A Bentley!" I responded.  I had watched a program called luxury something or another and was amazed at the manufacturing of the Bentley.  They even put in your initials and it is the closest to hand made as possible for a car and only 500,000.  Is my house worth that?
     "I can't even afford this one."  he remarks
     "I know what you mean."  I reply.

     The red light changes to green and we both move on to our separate lives.
 
     What are your dreams?  Do you have any?  What is it you want in life?  Do you know?  Something to think about today.  Take a moment and examine your life.  Are you happy?  Are you fulfilled?  Do you like people?  Would you talk casually to a stranger in a safe environment?  Would you talk to anyone you do not know? What kind of risks do you take if any?  Who do you like to spend time with?  Why not spend some time today to think what it is that you would like to do to take care of yourself this summer?  What do you think?   
     Now back to reality, coffee break, think about how to get another book shelf into my beautiful office and continue writing my Specialist papers.  I am at my best in the morning when my brain is still fresh.

What was that you were thinking?